well i had my surgery on march 14th 2008 at 11:30 pm , i went in on adavan cause i was so scared and nervous. they took me in at quarter after 11 and the last think i remember was them looking for my vain for the intervienus. I remember vagly hearing them talk to me a bit but don't remember when. i think i may have started to wake up during the surgery cause i can remember a nurse saying "no not now, u have to breath" and putting a mask on my face. then i remember being so groggy and out of it. i heard the nurse calling cole telling him i was waking up and i remember thinking "no not yet i just want to sleep" i remember passing out again and cole coming and going. I remember the nurse and cole helping me put my pjs back on and the nurse pulling me out of bed and me just wanting to sleep. then i was throughing up and the nurse is telling me too. I do not remember getting into the car or getting home. Though i do remember the wind on my face cause cole had the windows down and him constantly asking if i was "still with him" i have no idea how i got in the house. The first clear memory i have is waking up on the couch and cole is making dinner. I was told that my surgery was over by one but i slept till 5:30 and that every time i was thinking to myself i just wanted to sleep that i was actually talking out loud!
The next 4 days were a total blur. Cole was home all weekend with me (my surgery was on a Friday) and then TY came on Monday and stayed all week to help look after me. I was on Morphine and couldn't do anything on my own m, i basically just slept the hole time, i was very week and could barely walk. I was on morphine for 9 days when i finally stopped taking it. Coles parents came down from Clinton on the 21st and stayed until the 29th. they stayed here at our house too.. and on easter weekend his Aunt and uncle and his little cousins came over to out house too since i couldn't walk on stairs to go to Chris and Rae-Annes yet so they came too. We had a full house for 2 weeks. I was hardly ever alone so it was nice. I started walking on my own on the 25th . though i was in emerg on the 18th cause my knee was thought to be infected by the clinic dr and since DR. Nelson (my surgeon ) was the dr on call they sent me to emerg. Dr . Nelson didn't think so and thought it was a blood clot so i had to have an ultrasound. never did here the results. i was in constant pain and still am, i went to my family dr on the 27 and he told me it is harshly infected so now i am on antibiotics and im really week, i have been having dizzy spells and been blacking out and it hurts like hell , its all red and purple.
My goal was to be back at work on the 7 and thats probably not gonna happen considering i still cant bend my knee and last night at my first physio visit i learn't i have lost all my strength in my muscles and thats why i cant lift or move or bend my knee on my own and cole has to help me. They hooked my thigh up to some electrodes to try to wake it up a bit. its a really scary feeling when u try to move ur leg or tell it to move and nothing happens!!
So it just seems to be one thing after another and all these complications. I have lost 5 lbs and normally that would be something i would be happy about , but honestly it just pissed me off.. i worked my ass off at the gym since October before this surgery , biked or walked to and from work and gained weight , i have surgery, loose my appetite and now get sick the weight starts dropping! so not cool!
Also it hurts like hell to sit down so sitting at my computer for longer then 5 mins makes my muscles start to shake and my pain to go from 5-8 , for this reason i have barely been able to work on my website or Walk-A-Thin and i cant go out cause sitting in the car takes all my strength and hurts like hell.
The hole time i knew i was getting surgery i was so worried about the surgery itself that i never even thought about how hard the recovery would be. i cant thank god enough for cole and Tyrai that have been amazing and so helpful and patient.
I am going crazy with bordum and getting really sick of sitting at home. I am actually missing my work so much and cant not wait to get back there and sit at my desk and see everyone lol . i so didn't know how much id miss my daily routine of work, gym and life lol . I am very egar to get back to work , get back the gym and get back into shape!!
So there you have it there's my update. I just want to thank everyone for there support and help!! i cant wait for everything to be back to normal!!! and better then normal i have so many goals now that my knee is "better" i want to get my drivers license, start swimming regularly and maybe take some dance lessons or horse back riding lessons!
All i know is i plant to live a much more active life style and loose all this weight this injury made me gain! I cant wait!
Look out world there will be a new me soon enough! In the end i know the pain an troubles i am having now is going to be so worth it!!
I can see the light at the end of this tunnel and its looking bright!!

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